I was an adult model for almost a year. Here are a few things learned from experiences.
The sex industry is a quick way to resources, but not healthy mentally and emotionally for black women in particular. But, it has economic power, economic security/money protection which is why many black women, and women in general, turn to it, anyway.
But, for white women, who already have economic security, yet are used to being disrespected by their men, the sex industry may offer an ego trip, and power, sometimes feels like empowerment (the ego trip). It’s fun, but NOT safe or even good a lot of the time. This is the truth of what it is, though.
So, when you’re a black person looking from the outside in, the white world looks so glamorous and advanced at first, and just because you see something from the surface doesn’t mean you’re always seeing it completely. Looks deceive, after all.
As through the adult industry:
Like the Hollywood Industry:
Little do they know that both of these industries have sexual violence (like pedophilia) as well as sexual exploitation/objectification at the core, as well as background of it’s creation.
That you can’t help but think that if you lived within that world the only thing you can be would be happy. But, it’s obviously not true. Maybe it was true for the Ancient Africans… Not so and ever for the Europeans, though.
Their glamorous world is not really theirs in the first place, though. So, it doesn’t surprise me how both of these industries turned out. As the ancient empires creators we Africans were, we built our own civilizations, as our own (not through slavery). The other, meaning: the Caucasoid though, destroyed civilizations, so that they would be theirs, but only by ways of warfare, not credibility, but slavery and indentured servitude (for the Whites). They didn’t create it as to make themselves sufficient so they wouldn’t have had to depend on chattel slavery or modern slavery in the first place. But this is exactly what they did though, and they haven’t become anymore efficient with the current failings of capitalism (even if it’s under Donald Trump) and due exactly to labor, environmental, and human rights in other countries that make their stuff (mostly made in China) for them and compared to Europeans ways of living and wage this could only be considered modern slavery. It’s what they depended on then and now. In Greece (as well as other Southern European countries that are in debt and are failing economically) they have a debt to these countries and CONTINENTS, as Africa which is both that they can’t even pay their debt for using and overusing so many of our resources.
The masks are coming off.
So having been able to step into this world, I’ve been able to see through this mirage (as all of us will eventually). While their world may seem glamorous and exorbitant, especially to an outsider, that’s only what it seems… when really their world is just a society they got from others that has their own western values built within it, so that white people are only beautiful, but only under certain condition (blonde, blue-eyed, and skinny) and so that whites are respected, but also under certain conditions (must be conventional, happy and popular).
You don’t think Whites themselves don’t practice enough self-hate by themselves to make black people hate themselves even worse?
So, whites are only respected for being white because they’re not non-whites, but then they also have to be this or that way because in the end they know they’re not really valuable for being white, so they create these false standards for themselves to make it just a little bit more believable. But of course, it never is. But, get a silly outsider to look within it, and maybe at first glance, and only because it seems that way, it could be.
It’s possible, but never true.
So, in all honestly, being confused for being white really fucking genuinely sucked (cause the world sucks to everyone White it’s why we don’t take care of it after all as Kurt Cobain even said), but especially because of this mirage of whiteness being better than how it actually is, and because this is seen as true within their world to fit in you actually need to lower your standards!
White people are under this idea of themselves where because they’re white that’s all they really need to alright, so to actually try to make yourself into a better and developed form of yourself, it’s seen as unnecessary and snobby, you might even get called a goody good two-shoes, like I did. I’d never get called nigger though, but I feel like a nigger anyway. Neanderthal is the TRUE N-word after all, it’s why we prefer to call ourselves Bastards, anyway.
So, being a white blonde girl, I had to be more arrogant and aggressive, and most surprising to me, stupid even and all so I can fit in because otherwise I was a snob, because to white people, what else do you really need anyway? White supremacy rules before everything, and it’s as disgusting as it looks.
Even 6o year from then there have been more violent force and police brutality against black people than lynching. Racism changes form, but it’s never less disgusting and sickening, even with the billboards and “advanced” technology.
White supremacy will always looks the same.